Self doubt

Do any other authors out there struggle to believe that what you write is actually worth writing?  For the past few months I’ve been able to make a fairly successful living off of my copywriting and ghostwriting clients, plus I have had publishers show real interest in my creative writing, however, I still doubt every day that I will be able to write anything other than a page full of nonsense. 

It’s almost like I fear that talent is like an ancient muse who will simply show up and leave whenever he wants to.  I don’t trust myself to succeed.  Every day I take at least two assignments from clients, and with each one I doubt that I will be able to complete the work to their satisfaction.  This fear makes no sense, after all, I have never had a client reject my work or rate it poorly, and many of these clients are returning customers who have purposefully sought me out because they like my style.

Is doubt something that accompanies creativity?  Do artists and musicians experience the same kind of distrust?  I sincerely hope that I’m not alone.  I worry sometimes that I am just some neurotic soul with an inferiority complex.  Maybe the fact that I actually worry about being neurotic makes me even more so…

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5 thoughts on “Self doubt

  1. One of the writing books I read says first drafts are always shitty. But even after you are (or I am in anycase lol) three or four drafts, sometimes it’s hard to believe the piece is any good.

  2. I have always been my own worst critic. I’m not as anxious when I write purely for myself because I know I can always rework it, even if it’s 5 years from now. But when I’m writing for a client, I get super paranoid. Like you, I’ve never had a negative reception, but those fears still always seem to be there. So no, you are not alone!

  3. Your definitely not alone. I’m currently paralyzed with my self-doubt. I can’t even look at my creative writing thesis these days. My adviser and my workshop classes have all responded very well, but me? I can’t get around the doubt.

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  5. Thanks for letting me know I’m not alone guys! Writing can be a lonely, intimidating thing, but having others around who support you and appreciate your work makes it all worth while!

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