Yesterday I received the news, a publisher officially wants to publish my picture book manuscript. It’s only a small press, and my book will only start out with a small run, but depending on how hard I am willing to work to promote it, the sky is the limit. I am so excited and can’t wait to hold my own book in my hands. I think the first thing I will do when I get it is to sniff it and savor that new book smell.
Along with all the excitement and the pride, comes a lot of nerves though. I keep hearing the same refrain go through my head: what if no one wants to buy my book? What if I set up a book reading or signing and absolutely no one comes? Or even worse, what if a bunch of people come and I get all tongue tied or want to puke while talking to them? What if none of the local bookstores will even let me come speak? And one of my biggest fears of all…what if I don’t even like my book? After all, I’m not illustrating it, so what happens if the book looks nothing like I imagined?
If only I could shut all of these thoughts down long enough to actually enjoy the process. Is this normal? Do all writers go through these panic attacks before they sell their first book? Someone please reassure me that I am not freaking losing my mind!