I feel so desperately lonely sometimes, and at those times it feels like I am not only experiencing my own personal loneliness, but the loneliness of humanity in general. During those times I mourn how disconnected we have all become, and I consider how alone each of us really is in our own thoughts and emotions. No matter how deeply we want to relate to one another, there is a shallowness that is unavoidable due to separation and individuality.
Maybe I am overthinking things or ruminating far too much, but sometimes I despair of existence and wish I could truly bridge the chasm between my own mind and heart and another’s.
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Hi! I am an artist, author, and blogger who also happens to have Asperger’s Syndrome. I have won several awards and honors for my writings and artwork. I suffer from a few severe mental illness and chronic pain conditions (Depression, Anxiety, PTSD, Fibromyalgia, CFS/ME, Ehlers Danlos, Degenerative Disc Disease, etc.), which greatly affects my life and makes me want to advocate for others going through similar things. Other interests of mine include reading, writing, drawing, watching cartoons and movies, collecting toys, hanging out with my family, and annoying my 3 cats.
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Your ruminations are spot on. Can’t help but echo your thoughts that we are increasingly becoming too self-consumed. And more times than not, we make technology the scapegoat.
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Thanks for reading and commenting Amitesh. I agree about often making technology the scapegoat, and while technology might make it easier to disconnect, it isn’t the root of the problem I believe.
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Sensing what is in others can bring us together in connection. Thank you for sharing from your heart Maranda 💛
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I wish I could connect more with others, too. I do have my sweet husband, but I feel that I even have too little time with him. I have too much time with myself alone. I don’t dislike myself, but I’m not able to supply myself with all that I need.
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I can understand what you mean. I often feel like I don’t have much time with my husband either. He is a teacher and that takes up so much time, but he loves it and I’m glad he does. I just get lonely.
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That is lucky that your husband loves his job. Mine hates his. My husband would give anything to be with me more, but we need the money and he just can’t seem to find anything better. He’s even thinking about moving to Europe. That scares me to death. If I’m isolated here in my home country with family at least somewhat nearby, being abroad with language difficulties would be even more stressful.
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I would be afraid too. I am lucky my husband likes his job, I just wish I had more in my life, that I was able to work once again, but due to physical and mental issues, it just isn’t realistic. The last two times I tried to hold down a job didn’t go well at all.
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I can relate, marandarussell. I’m on disability. I’ve tried volunteering, but even that tends to end abruptly because of mood issues.
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I’ve thought about volunteering but do worry about even that. I’m not currently getting disability but am looking into it.
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The thing about quitting the volunteering for me is that I always feel like I’m burning bridges.
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Yeah, I can see that. I would worry about the same thing.
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I feel the same way too often.
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😦 Sorry to hear that. Thanks for reading and commenting though.
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you are right , Everyone gets lonely.
thank you so much for following my blog.
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I enjoy your blog 🙂 Thank you for reading and commenting!
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Thanks n Always welcome. 🙂
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