Everywhere I go
I fear I’ll find you.
I skulk around the edge
of each aisle,
scanning faces
to make sure it is safe.
I play out
our fearfully planned reunion
again and again
in my mind.
When the inevitable collision
happens, I consider
speaking Spanish
or pretending I don’t know you.
In every scenario
you see past the lie,
but you don’t always
call me out on it.
Instead, you give me
that knowing smirk
(the one I hate so much),
turn your head
and walk on by –
leaving me convinced
that a knock-down, drag-out
confrontation
might have been better
in the end.
~ Maranda Russell
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Hi! I am an artist, author, and blogger who also happens to have Asperger’s Syndrome. I have won several awards and honors for my writings and artwork. I suffer from a few severe mental illness and chronic pain conditions (Depression, Anxiety, PTSD, Fibromyalgia, CFS/ME, Ehlers Danlos, Degenerative Disc Disease, etc.), which greatly affects my life and makes me want to advocate for others going through similar things. Other interests of mine include reading, writing, drawing, watching cartoons and movies, collecting toys, hanging out with my family, and annoying my 3 cats.
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Good, very, very good! Arlene
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Aw, thanks so much!
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Like the title, I’ve been through relationship ptsd. I used to be someone, that was there, till better came along. Till I said, enough. When I got married, thought it would be Not like that, it was Not, something better, it is something different.
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Thanks for reading and commenting! For some reason your comment was put in the spam folder, but I saved it 🙂
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Thank you. ☺⚘
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This is Relationship PTSD > 😈
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Nice one Maranda, I loved it!
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Thanks! I wrote this a while back, but decided to just now share it on here.
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I really liked it, if you have more like this you should be proud to show them! I was impressed!
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I do have a lot more poems I plan to share, just takes time 🙂
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Fair comment, but this one I really enjoyed!
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