The Spice Girls of Depression

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Last night my back pain got so bad that I may have accidentally overdosed on muscle relaxers. I was thinking my prescription allowed me to take up to 3 muscle relaxers at a time, but I was wrong, apparently it was only 2 at a time…and I took 4. I’m not sure if there is actually much danger in that, but I probably should be more careful.

Yesterday was also a horrible depression day for me. I think the combination of physical pain and the despair I feel sometimes about the seeming meaninglessness of life makes for a perfect storm. It probably didn’t help that I attended a group early in the day that talked about the sometimes apparent pointlessness of life when you are agnostic or atheist.

So, last night I was watching YouTube videos (trying to distract myself from the depression) when I watched a video about the 20th anniversary of the Spice Girls. While I was watching it, I started thinking that my depression is kind of like the extremely popular but somewhat annoying 90’s girl group. Instead of Sporty, Posh, Baby, Scary, and Ginger Spice, I have Paranoid Spice, Anxious Spice, Angry Spice, Sad Spice, and Hopeless Spice living in my head. Thinking about all these emotions personified in ridiculously dressed, cheesy girl group images did make me chuckle a bit. Imagine those dance routines!

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7 thoughts on “The Spice Girls of Depression

  1. FYI, the sense that life has no purpose or meaning is a symptom of depression, not atheism. Although atheists certainly can suffer as much as anyone from depression — including a sense of meaninglessness — many do not, and on the contrary feel their godless lives to be deeply meaningful.

    Hope that’s helpful in some way. 😊

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    • I think the thing is that when you are atheist or agnostic, you don’t believe in some kind of “divine purpose”, which means you have to find your own meaning and purpose in life, and some of us struggle with that. But as you said, some do not. I do know that several of the people in the group I attended also suffer from depression, so you are right that it plays a huge part. I personally do find it harder to find purpose in life without faith, but I didn’t mean to imply that every agnostic (or atheist) person feels that way.

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