I’m still struggling quite a bit. Feeling lethargic, numb, and exhausted all the time. Still not wanting to get out of bed, even though I’m not finding much refuge in sleep either, since my dreams the last couple nights have been overrun by nightmares. Quite an assortment of bad dreams too: A dream about my husband not loving me anymore, a dream about giant ants, a dream about trying to get kicked out of high school. Even in my dreams I’m miserable. During the high school dream the reason I wanted to get kicked out was because I was so depressed I just couldn’t function and wanted to go home and crash.
I’m hoping this depressive episode passes soon. I’m not sure if it is maybe exacerbated by seasonal affective disorder since I haven’t seen the sun in a while, or if this is just a shitty coincidence, but I wish I felt better.
Winter is contributing to the blues. Hope you get better soon
LikeLiked by 2 people
Thanks Sadje. Trying to hang in there.
LikeLiked by 1 person
Do that. This too shall pass. I read a post about it today and it was very uplifting.
LikeLiked by 1 person
Winter always makes it worse! Hang in there!
LikeLiked by 1 person
Thanks Laura ♥
LikeLiked by 1 person
Hang in there kiddo. I’m waiting for winter to pass so maybe I can get out of my little funk too.
LikeLiked by 1 person
♥
LikeLiked by 1 person
Double ugh!!!
LikeLiked by 1 person
Yeah 😦
LikeLiked by 1 person
Hang in there! *hug*
LikeLiked by 1 person
Thanks. I’m trying.
LikeLiked by 1 person
My heart goes out to you. I’d say the winter definitely isn’t helping but regardless of the causes, the fact remains that it isn’t easy or nice to feel how you’re feeling. Having nightmares is especially bad because we expect at least to be somewhat left alone in our sleep. As someone else said here, hang in there.
LikeLiked by 1 person
Thanks, I’m trying.
LikeLiked by 1 person
Life is a battle dear Maranda, hopefully you’re able to find strength and peace from within soon. ……
LikeLiked by 1 person
It is a battle indeed. Thank you.
LikeLiked by 1 person
Sorry about this
Well can you force yourself out of that bed
Go hike uphill until the only thought is can I put one foot in front of the other
Go help others, give without regard for reward
Take a walk through the children’s ward at the hospital
List all the things you are grateful for
Let
Those judgments about your feelings and thoughts pass on by
Stay present and disregard thought and dreams
Good luck
LikeLiked by 1 person
I did manage to drag myself out for a bit tonight. I think it helped.
LikeLike
Good for you
It is not easy but we have choices
LikeLiked by 1 person
Yes, hope you keep connecting with that resilient self evident in your writing.
LikeLiked by 1 person
Aw, thank you!
LikeLiked by 1 person
Wishing you all the best as the long weekend starts! Hopefully this will be a short winter.
LikeLiked by 1 person
Thank you for the kind thoughts.
LikeLiked by 1 person
❤
LikeLiked by 1 person
Hope this gonna be just a short time. Have experienced the same in winters and I’m always starting this season with loads of tricks and force myself to accept, that this is just my brain not working properly. Like if you had liver issues or something like this. Makes it a bit easier for me to force myself into action against this fucking bad depression! Wish you strength… And a comfortable couch 😁
LikeLiked by 1 person
Thank you 🙂 I’m trying to make myself do things to get out of it. Not easy though.
LikeLike
Send you some strength and big warm hugs!
LikeLiked by 1 person