Worries about My SSDI Hearing Tomorrow

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Tomorrow morning is my SSDI hearing. I’m super anxious about it. I feel a little nauseated just thinking about it. I’m afraid I’ll do or say the wrong thing. I’m afraid I’ll burst into tears and feel embarrassed. I’m afraid I’ll somehow misrepresent my reality. I’m afraid the judge will say no and ruin my foreseeable future.

I know the judge probably won’t even give a straight “yes” or “no” answer tomorrow, but that makes it even worse because then I have to wait who-knows-how-long in suspense and worry. I hope I’ll feel better when it is over, but knowing me, I’ll probably spend the next few months picking apart the experience and everything I think I did wrong until I get an answer.

 

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40 thoughts on “Worries about My SSDI Hearing Tomorrow”

  2. I was the same way. I waited five years and cleared my workers comp claim first

    It was confusing and quick. My lawyer said a couple things and they read a rule.

    I was asked two simple questions and we were done

    In the hallway I asked how we lost so quick

    He said we won

    What a farce of bureaucratic bullshit

    Good luck

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      1. It was awful. But the attorney told me outright that the judge was an a**h***. He’d been cited for too many denials. Follow your attorneys lead but if they drop the ball and your disability isn’t properly portrayed my advice would be to add that info. Everything is going on record. My attorney didn’t ask the right questions, the judge was an absolute jerk, and I’ve only recently begun the process all over again from square one. But I’ve heard of so many people who have had successful outcomes this past year. So don’t base anything off my one bad experience. I’m not trying to scare you either, mostly just venting. 😬

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      2. I understand. This is actually my second hearing. The first time I applied I had a sucky tv lawyer and did the video hearing. It didn’t go well. This time I have a lawyer that seems to actually care and am seeing a local judge in person, which they say makes a difference.

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  5. Good luck but you know, it helps to be at your worst at your hearing. We try to be our best, hide our disabilities, to live a normal life, but doing well at a SSDI hearing is actually showing your worst symptoms you try to hide most of the time. It’s a grueling process, I know. My thoughts are with you.

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  9. Like a few others, I empathize and hope for the best for you. As you may recall we’re in similar boats. My neck and back go out regularly. It cost me a few jobs, and I sat around for ages wondering what I could or should be doing differently to be productive instead of thinking about SSDI. I finally did file though. Everything you’re going through is part of being a normal, caring person who wants to do the right thing. Hang in there, and have faith in God and your attorney.

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