Dark Obsessions and MRI’s


Yesterday I saw my psychiatrist. We spent a lot of time talking about the dark, morbid interests I have and whether those might be contributing to my depression and anxiety. I’ve always been drawn to studying the dark side of things, whether it be the occult, serial killers, suicide, the dark side of history, horror movies and books, or psychopaths. I know these interests may not be the best things for my mental state, but they are all things that fascinate me and it is hard for me to resist things that fascinate me.

At one point in the conversation, my psychiatrist asked if there were any happy interests I have. I told him I love cartoons, but then I told him one of my favorite cartoon movies is Anastasia, which he pointed out is about the mass murder of the royal family lol, so maybe not so happy after all.

Today I have an MRI scheduled on my head and neck to try to figure out what might be causing my recent migraines. I’m really not looking forward to it. I hate MRI’s, especially on the head and neck because I feel really claustrophobic and hate not being able to move for so long.

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Hi! I am an artist, author, and blogger who also happens to have Asperger’s Syndrome. I have won several awards and honors for my writings and artwork. I suffer from a few severe mental illness and chronic pain conditions (Depression, Anxiety, PTSD, Fibromyalgia, CFS/ME, Ehlers Danlos, Degenerative Disc Disease, etc.), which greatly affects my life and makes me want to advocate for others going through similar things. Other interests of mine include reading, writing, drawing, watching cartoons and movies, collecting toys, hanging out with my family, and annoying my 3 cats.

24 thoughts on “Dark Obsessions and MRI’s”

  1. Aw I’m sorry I’m late reading this – I really do hope your MRI went as well as possible. Did you manage it okay?
    I share that morbid fascination. I was never sure whether it developed because I was allowed to get into things at a young age (like watching Chucky when I was 6, Psycho when I was 9, watching true crime shows & FBI files as a kid with my folks), or whether the fascination was already there. Maybe we just can’t help what fascinates us! xx

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    1. MRI didn’t go so well 😦 Wrote a post about that yesterday. You do sound a lot like me as a kid. By the time I was 9 I was reading Stephen King and VC Andrews books. I grew up watching Unsolved Mysteries and Rescue 911, the first movie I ever remember seeing in a theater was Arachnophobia, and I was a huge fan of stuff like Goosebumps and Are You Afraid of the Dark as a kid.

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