Last Night was a Disaster


That headline is not an exaggeration. First off, my MRIs went bad. I had MRIs for my brain and neck scheduled last night, both with and without contrast. I didn’t even get to the contrast part because the first part gave me a migraine, triggered severe neck pain, and gave me a major panic attack. I was almost sobbing by the time they got ready to give me the contrast, so they sent me home.

I left feeling embarrassed for not being able to keep myself from crying in public yet again. I also felt feelings of failure as I couldn’t do something as simple as completing two MRIs. Now I have to contact the neurologist that ordered the tests and tell him I wasn’t able to make it through and see if he wants to make separate orders for the contrast part. So, I might have to go through it again soon.

Also, we ate at a local restaurant yesterday that served me some bloody chicken. I didn’t notice right away because the blood pooled beneath the chicken breast. Anyhow, last night I got really sick and had to sleep with a trashcan beside me. I took both Mylanta and Zofran and nothing helped the nausea. I suspect I might have gotten a little bit of food poisoning from the underdone chicken.

At least I’m not fighting down vomit anymore, but still feeling nauseated and sick. Understandably, all this has made my mood rather blah too. I just want to huddle under the covers and hide from reality right now.

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Hi! I am an artist, author, and blogger who also happens to have Asperger’s Syndrome. I have won several awards and honors for my writings and artwork. I suffer from a few severe mental illness and chronic pain conditions (Depression, Anxiety, PTSD, Fibromyalgia, CFS/ME, Ehlers Danlos, Degenerative Disc Disease, etc.), which greatly affects my life and makes me want to advocate for others going through similar things. Other interests of mine include reading, writing, drawing, watching cartoons and movies, collecting toys, hanging out with my family, and annoying my 3 cats.

30 thoughts on “Last Night was a Disaster”

  1. Sounds rough! Sorry to hear it. I had an MRI done for my first time this year on my neck as well. It wasn’t a very fun experience. I had to go through it twice because I moved just a tiny bit the first time. I was afraid to breathe and mess it up again the second time.

    I hope your week improves 😊

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  2. Don’t feel embarrassed about the mri. They’re not a pleasant experience. If you need another, could someone sit in the room with you (with ear defenders) & gently hold your foot. I found that helped. As long as they don’t move, risking the need for a possible restart. I hope you recover quickly from the chicken. Sounds like it was yucky.💜

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  3. Please don’t be so hard on yourself. I hate MRIs and injections and I panic over most Dr visits and I was a nurse. I love you as you are and so does our Christ Jesus.:)

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  4. That so sucks! My father had a horrible reaction to a scan. It triggered a health crisis which led to his diagnosis of myasthenia gravis, but at the time, they thought he just had heart problems. His doctor is now being very careful about what tests he orders, determined to help Dad get healthy without making him worse in the process. Hope things improve for you and that your doctor gets what he needs from the scans you accomplished.

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  5. Oh heck, such an awful day all around. I’m sorry it didn’t go better with the MRI but don’t feel embarrassed about crying in public or struggling with it, the main thing is to rest up and feel back to your ‘baseline’ as soon as you can. I wonder if they could do them under sedation? Sending hugs  ♥ xxxx

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  6. Oh that didn’t go well … I can’t do mri’s there’s another X-ray I have it’s one where I’m laying on this pad that swings or tilts where I am slanted and they get everything . It’s out in the open as well I need to find out what they call or.

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