Nervous About My First Gastroscopy

Tomorrow I have my first ever upper gastrointestinal endoscopy scheduled. I’m super nervous about it. My biggest fear is that the anesthesia won’t fully knock me out and I will be conscious during it. I also worry about the possibility of the anesthesia wearing off early and waking up during it. I almost wish it had been done today so it would be over already and the anxiety would be over with.

During the procedure they plan to take a small biopsy to check me for celiac disease since changing to a gluten free diet has seemed to have some positive benefits for me. For one thing, since I switched to a mostly gluten free diet, my iron and vitamin D levels have stabilized for the first time in at least over a decade after always being too low.

The procedure is also being done to check for a hiatal hernia and acid reflux damage. I hope the results won’t be discouraging or worrisome. I also hope the anesthesia won’t make me sick. Prayers and positive energy are most welcome if any of you do that kind of thing!

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18 thoughts on “Nervous About My First Gastroscopy”

  1. I’ve had 6 surgeries in the past five years including one on my retina, necessary to recover sight in my right eye. I had the same fears as you did (especially the one where the anesthesia did not work). My experience was that after I lay down on the operating table and got all set up, they gave me the anesthetic and the next thing I knew I was in the recovery room. Every time. A couple surgeries were under general anesthetic and that left me with a little bit of a sore throat for a few hours, but no memory of anything about the operation. The others were under a sedation type of anesthesia and I slept through all of them. Don’t remember a thing. Nothing hurt. And in my first hand surgery, I had the most pleasant dream about some polar bears swimming in a white ocean, that I resisted waking up, it was so nice (I then proceeded to tell the nurse the whole story and wouldn’t let her go until I was sure she understood what an amazing dream this was, now I’m embarrassed to think of how this must have seemed. Though I do guess they hear all kinds of things). What I’m trying to say is, I’ve been in your shoes and (especially in the case of my retina, where I was very fearful of the outcome) I had to remind myself that the surgery and anesthesia were necessary, and that it would be over soon. I also found the nurses, etc., to be very caring and sensitive to my fears. I am sure it will all turn out great and you will get good info for your health. I’ll be thinking about you, and I hope you don’t mind this long reply. And who knows, maybe you will see those wonderful polar bears?

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  2. Don’t worry too much Maranda. I’ve had a number of these procedures done, and only felt dry and a bit sore in the mouth, relax, you’ll be fine… xxx


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