In Pain, Depressed, and Isolated

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Sorry I haven’t written in a few days. I threw my back/neck out again and it has been bad. Probably the worst it has ever been. I have been constantly downing pain killers and muscle relaxers and still no change. Usually the worst only lasts a day or two during these flareups, but now I’m on day 3 and it still hurts to move in any direction.

Naturally, this has me rather depressed too. I had appointments and fun plans this weekend that I had to cancel due to the pain. I feel like it doesn’t matter how hard I try to be social or how much I try to take good care of myself, my efforts always end up jinxed.

This is why I normally end up isolating myself, because I feel like all my health issues make me unreliable. It feels like no matter how understanding other people are, when I have to call off at the last minute several times, they start to get frustrated (and understandably so).

I just wish this horrible pain would pass.

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31 thoughts on “In Pain, Depressed, and Isolated

  1. Depression is such a hideous problem that is rarely understood. I can empathise with you for one reason that I had worked with many such people in helping them.. Correct understanding helps to overcome it…take care

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  2. I am so sorry you are going through this. I do not want to make this about myself, but I am currently experiencing the worst food poisoning I have ever had.

    This past week was tough and I looked forward to resting, but I am in so much pain. I empathize with you, and things will get better.

    Wishing you all the best

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  3. I think everyone who has chronic pain and fatigue feel this way. When I am incapacitated by my disorder now, I try to tell myself how lucky I am that I can rest, I have enough support, and although it’s meager, I have a disability check that allows me to rest when I need to. I still hate it. Hate disappointing people, being seen as unreliable. But most people understand, and if they don’t, it means they have only a narrow idea about how life works. I hope you feel better soon.

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  4. i am so very sorry………..pain sucks and there is only so much that pills can do it mask it……….life moves on around us and it gets old not being part of it. sending you healing and healthy thoughts that tomorrow will be a better day!

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  5. I’m sorry to hear you’re in pain, did you see the dr? I’m surprised they did not give you around of Prednisone to deal with the inflammation! Maybe if you tried some strong ibuprofen that would help. Ice and heat too. Try the ice for 20 minutes, then switch to heat. Hope you get relief soon.

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  6. Oh ouch. I’m so sorry, Maranda. Chronic pain is an utter nightmare, for many reasons that go beyond just the pain itself. I’m hoping your friends are the type who are understanding; this isn’t your fault and your body being temperamental can’t be helped. The main thing is to look after yourself, and find other ways to nourish your mental wellbeing while the pain is so extreme. Hang in there. Please know we’re all here and thinking of you. Sending hugs  ♥
    Caz xx

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