Quarantine Depression

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I’m struggling right now mentally and emotionally. Here are some of the reasons:

  • I found out yesterday that my psychiatrist is retiring at the end of the month, so I have to start seeing someone new, beginning with my next appointment in June. I think one of the worst things is that I won’t get a chance to say goodbye and I really liked my current psychiatrist. He was weird, but in a good way. I feel anxiety and fatigue at the thought of having to start over with someone new and share all my issues from the beginning.
  • My husband is in a bad funk because of the quarantine. He desperately misses work and since school has been cancelled for the rest of the year, he won’t be able to get back to work until at least the next school year starts, if then. His constant low mood is making it more difficult for me to keep my head above water mentally-speaking.
  • I’m feeling lonely and disconnected, perhaps due to the quarantine? Although it is certainly a feeling I was familiar with far before all this madness began. Maybe the social distancing just heightens what was already there.
  • I have no desire to do anything. I don’t want to write this blog, but I am pushing through. I don’t want to do my normal housework, online work…any of it.

55 thoughts on “Quarantine Depression

  1. Hey Maranda

    I think it is almost normal to feel lost and if we are prone to depression ,be depressed.

    The therapist is emotionally hard, but not a negative. A new start maybe fruitful with a new therapist.

    More stress when couples are isolated at home feeling loss

    I felt gloomy the last couple of days

    My thoughts were negative, gloomy and melancholy followed.

    I had to go back to counting my blessings and remembering how others have survived crisis.

    Mandela spent 27 years in prison and came out not resenting

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      1. Hey it is hard but we know how to center again

        We judge our lives as lacking something

        Accept your mate is aggravated and come up with creative way to make him laugh or feel extra loved

        Kindness costs nothing and has a way of letting negativity fade

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    1. I think Marty hit the nail on the head with the phrase “feeling loss.” Maybe no one died, but losing your trusted psychiatrist is definitely a loss. I’m sorry the transition was not made more smoothly. Someone really dropped the ball there. (But I’m trying to remember that everyone is going through something and have a little grace for those responsible.) Hang in there as tomorrow will be another day and another opportunity to feel good again. I know it is hard, but I urge you and your husband to support each other, be each other’s cheerleader. Together you can do this!

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      1. It is always hard to surrender to the unknown

        We try like hell to protect our safety, our future and life keeps changing

        We all have a tough time adapting at times

        If I expect things to turn to shit at times as normal

        It’s not so bad

        That’s a different mindfulness

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  2. Hello, Maranda.
    I completely understand how you feel with regards to changing psychiatrist. I had gone through that myself a little over a year ago. Although change is difficult, you neve know… It could actually work out for the best. That’s what happened with me.
    I adore my psychiatrist now. She really listens to what is happening to me and reads the notes that my therapist writes up. That makes a big difference.
    As far as feeling lonely and disconnected even when living with someone… This whole lockdown down period is making a lot of people feel fearful of what will take place from day to day.
    I agree with you… this social distaning is amping up this feeling of loneliness.
    Heck, I’m an introvert by nature, but this has thrown me off something fierce.
    It’s like living in a horrible Steven King or James Patterson story.
    Hang in there my friend. You are not alone in how you are feeling, not one bit.

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      1. I know it’s easier said than done, but you don’t meet with the new psychiatrist for another month. Don’t get yourself all worked up for the next 30 days. Try and occupy your mind on other things. Maybe you and your husband can work on a puzzle together or play board games and listen to music.
        Anything to avoid thinking of something you have no control over for the next month, I highly recommend

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      2. I do understand that completely. I was blindsided by getting a phone call the week before my appointment notifying me that my old psychiatrist left the facilility. I was remember being a mess the whole week before meeting my new one. Again, it actually worked out well. I really respect her and she is kind and compassionate towards my needs.
        Ihope your adjustment period doesn’t affect you in a negative way. Hang in there, Dear.

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  3. It’s so difficult to console people who are depressed. My best friend is struggling with having both her parents in long term care and she is feeling a lot of guilt. Luckily the virus has not hit this one particular home but they are in lock down. All I can say is that this will pass and try to make the best of the time you have with your husband in isolation. I know words don’t help much right now but we are all thinking of you. Stay strong. Carol

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    1. I feel for your friend. My aunt is going through something very similar. Her 88-ish year old father had a stroke right as all this lockdown stuff started and he has been so horribly depressed because he is alone going through it and I know she feels a lot of guilt even though she can’t do anything.

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  4. Trust me, you are not alone! I’m fighting every day not to develop what I know to be the signs that I’m heading into depression. One of my biggest signals is that, though I hate shopping, except in the grocery store (and now, not even there), is the want to go shopping and buy lots of things I neither need nor, to be honest, really want. Fortunately, except for online, I can’t actually do that! I’m emotionally numb for the most part – overwhelmed by so much bad news and political division, etc. that my emotions are pretty much shut down. Physically, I will continue to suffer with my limitations which is only bad because now I have time to do things but am unable to do them physically. We tell ourselves to be grateful that we having succumbed to the virus, be we have wounds from this pandemic that will take a longer time than a 14-day quarantine to heal. Congrats, though, on forcing yourself to blog! That puts you a step up from me! All I can do is say “hang in there” and good luck with your new psychiatrist. Who knows – it might be good!!!????

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  5. sending virtual hugs to you, Maranda!
    I’m glad you did write this blog post, because it allowed you write down and share some of your anxiety, and perhaps find comfort in some of the comments.
    I have to admit to always trying the find the silver lining in any situation (sorry lol) and I’ll be crossing fingers & toes that your new psychiatrist turns out to be someone you can learn to be comfortable with.

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  6. Thinking of you and sending compassion.

    We had been chatting with some folks about not trudging out our full pile of sorrows when we get new therapists. Yah, they need some condensed info. The question is: Do we have to relive every sorrow to really do the work? Maybe. Your retiring Psych will always be a safe place for your sorrows and joys and secrets to dwell as you build skills.

    May you find relief in this moment

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  7. Alot of people are going through the same thing with these blasted lockdowns. It’s perfectly normal.

    Hang in there. If nothing else, all the replies should show you that your fellow bloggies are here for you. 🙂

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  8. I am so sorry you are feeling so down. This lockdown/quarantine has been extra impactful on those suffering from mental illness. I know you do not feel like doing anything, and that is okay. Do not force yourself. Maybe just try and put some music on in the background, or put on a movie and just let your mind focus on something else, even if you are not invested in the movie. I hope you feel better soon.

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  9. I am so sorry that you’re struggling. This pandemic and many other things are affecting many people and their lives. What’s helped me? Staying busy, calm, and getting plenty of rest. What has also helped me is reading the bible. It gives me peace and true hope for a better future. I look forward to the day when no one will ever be depressed, sick or die. We will live here on earth in peaceful conditions. I hope that things will get better for you! Stay healthy and safe.🌸

    Isaiah:33:24-And no resident will say: I am sick.

    Isaiah:25:8-He will swallow up death forever, and the sovereign lord Jehovah will wipe away tears from all faces.

    Psalms 37:11-But the meek will possess the earth, And they will find exquisite delight in the abundance of peace.

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  10. Wow buddy our topics are so similar and it’s relatable.
    I posted on mental heath check during quarantine check it out and maybe your suggestions can be taken into consideration . Come talk about your feelings and emotions in the comments .

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    1. Thanks. I actually had my first appointment with my new one yesterday (via video due to the virus). He seems really nice and listened to me well, so hopefully it will be ok in the long run, just a hard adjustment.

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