Migraines are Killing Me

These migraines are killing me. Today’s the 8th day in a row, beating my last record of 7 days. It is affecting my whole life. I can barely function.

The stress of dealing with marriage counseling and the hurt over my husband’s online behavior that I see as a betrayal of our relationship is probably playing a big role in this particular flareup, which makes me feel resentful too. Almost like he is putting me through this. He is doing everything he can to make amends, and I deeply appreciate that, but the hurt is still there.

I have to debate every day whether I should even take migraine relieving medicine (no matter how much pain I am in) as I run the risk of causing rebound migraines if I take more than a few pills a week. It is SO frustrating 😦

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Hi! I am an artist, author, and blogger who also happens to have Asperger’s Syndrome. I have won several awards and honors for my writings and artwork. I suffer from a few severe mental illness and chronic pain conditions (Depression, Anxiety, PTSD, Fibromyalgia, CFS/ME, Ehlers Danlos, Degenerative Disc Disease, etc.), which greatly affects my life and makes me want to advocate for others going through similar things. Other interests of mine include reading, writing, drawing, watching cartoons and movies, collecting toys, hanging out with my family, and annoying my 3 cats.

30 thoughts on “Migraines are Killing Me”

  2. SO sorry to hear, Maranda. While I get them constantly, I at least get some breaks from them. So I’m sorry to hear you’re dealing with this; they’re truly brain crushing, but having one for days on end is soul crushing.
    While I normally try not to make suggestions on other people’s Blogs; I thought it may be acceptable in this situation. I hope it’s ok……
    I have recently found relief from using a Koldtec Halo (it’s basically small reusable ice packs in a headband that velcros around your head) and I add a few drops of Young Living’s MGrain Essential Oils to the halo. (nope, I’m not a sponsor of either πŸ˜‰)
    It doesn’t necessarily eliminate the migraines, but it does bring it down to a level where I don’t have to take the Fioricet. Like you, I can only take two doses a week….which means I have to reserve it for the worst of the worst.

    Sending you strength and hope ❀️

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    1. I’ll definitely look into that. I do have a couple hot/cold eye masks that do help some. I find the heat works better, because the ice hardens so much that it won’t lie right against my eyes. I’ll check into that though!

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      1. I think the thing with the Koldtec Halo is that they’re tiny ice packs (all connected), like little flat ice cubes…..so it’s easier to get them where you need them. I normally never use ice, as I have Raynaud’s, but I’ve found they can really reduce the level of the migraine pain…..
        No matter what, good luck. I’ll be praying you get some relief soon. ❀️

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  3. This time comically speaking is a reckoning with us highly sensitive people. Many of us are experiencing similar symptoms my friend. Sleeping either less or more and the unfortunate migraines are a part of it. I’m sorry the extra added stress of your current situation aren’t helping. Just know this is all molding and sharpening you for better things to come. Trust that. Sending you so much love ❀

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  8. I too suffer from migraines I am now on medication for them so I have less migraines days now it use to be my migraines would last weeks and I would have to go to the emergency room to get a drug cocktail in a iv but then we told my family doctor and she put me on the medication I’m on now.

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  10. β™‘ Hey, You ARE NOT!!! Alone, Let Alone Lonely; every now and then There is An Incredibly Intense Burst of Energies, the like of whichover the last week or so, that Support Our Evolution which any “medication” may delay via interference, ergo, I AM So Proud of You for Gritting Your Teeth and Waiting for The Pain to Pass just like a Mother Giving Birth…it is a Birth that some call Re-Birth; so here’s My Less than Pleasant Evolution Experiences of the last week or so:

    β™‘ Erratic Circadian Rhythms and Appetite Reduction
    β™‘ Heaving in My Midriff and Energetic Spewing on Getting Out of Bed
    β™‘ Humming in My Ears
    β™‘ Buzzing in My Body
    β™‘ Tingling in My Hands and Feet
    β™‘ Pain in Various Parts of My Body and Sweats

    …ultimately it’s up to you deal with this; it’s My Recommendation that you let it Run Its Course by Resting when you Need to Rest…

    …β™‘β™‘β™‘…

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      1. β™‘ Herewith My Latest NoneSense; that I THINK!!! YOUR!!! Husband would also appreciate but that’s None of My Damn Business yet I Have Made it so

        …β™‘β™‘β™‘…

        “ON HOPING

        β™‘ We ALL Have Hope EveryOne; depends on Whether it’s On The Surface or Buried to WhatEver Degree…for example I Had Hoped to Pass My French Exam then I Failed Miserably; because I Had Spent ALL My French Classes Staring Up My French Teachers Dress at Her Knickers πŸ˜‚πŸ€£πŸ˜…πŸ˜†πŸ˜πŸ˜„πŸ˜ƒπŸ˜€πŸ™‚

        nisi mortuus nec neque nolite vicit 🀭🀫🀐

        …β™‘β™‘β™‘…

        ON HOPELESS

        β—‡ – Diamond Hard – β—‡

        β—‡ If Our PAM (Perception Attitude MindSet) is that We Have No Hope then We Have No Hope; which Begs The Sole Question of Why ARE We STILL!!! Here EveryOne, AnyOne πŸ€” ? The Stone Cold Silence is Deafening πŸ˜”

        nisi mortuus nec neque nolite vicit 🀭🀫🀐

        β—‡ – Diamond Hard – β—‡

        …β—‡β—‡β—‡…

        ON SUCCESSFUL HOPEFULNESS

        β™‘ It Basically Boils Down to a TOUGH!!! PAM (Perception Attitude MindSet) that Generates a Calm PAT (Patience Acceptance Tolerance); it seems that Most Us Want and DEMAND!!! ALL NOW!!! instead of Waiting and when FAILED!!! Some Commit Suicide, where ARE YOU!!! πŸ€” ?

        nisi mortuus nec neque nolite vicit 🀭🀫🀐

        …β™‘β™‘β™‘…

        ON SUCCESS CLASS 101

        β—‡ – Diamond Hard – β—‡

        β™‘ Only YOU!!! Decide what Successful Means to YOU!!!
        ♀ How YOU!!! Succeed is Entirely Up to YOU!!!
        ♧ Clubbing – If Others Belittle YOUR!!! Successes YOU!!! ARE PERFECTLY ENTITLED!!! and Welcome to Tell THEM!!! to VERY KINDLY FUCK OFF!!! – Clubbing

        nisi mortuus nec neque nolite vicit 🀭🀫🀐

        β—‡ – Diamond Hard – β—‡

        …β—‡β—‡β—‡…”

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  12. ON EVOLUTION IN A SINGLE 3DLIFETIME

    β—‡ – Diamond Hard – β—‡

    β—‡ The Evolutionary Process is Far From Comfortable; which is Why Most of Us Grow Old, Wrinkly and Die Instead of Becoming Immortal…it involves Painful Energy Infusions, BedTime Slumber Pain and also, DisComfort in Many Other Ways; especially in Our Heads and Solar Plexus

    β—‡ – Diamond Hard – β—‡

    nisi mortuus nec neque nolite vicit 🀭🀫🀐

    …β—‡β—‡β—‡…

    ON EVOLUTION SYMPTOMS

    β—‡ – Diamond Hard – β—‡

    These ARE Numerous; yet Bearable:

    β—‡ Joint Pain like Gout which is InCurable but Beta Blockers ARE Pain Relief and Delay Our Evolutionary Process
    β—‡Erratic Circadian Rhythms and Appetite Reduction
    β—‡ Humming of Ears, Buzzing of Body and Tingling of Hands and Feet
    β—‡ Heaving in the Midriff Sometimes Spewing after Getting of Bed like Morning Sickness in Early Pregnancy
    β—‡ Headaches that ARE Intially Quite Severe and Often Called ‘Migraines’ but ARE Actually a ReConfiguration of Our Neural PathWays

    …fundamentally it’s Birth as a ‘Grown Up’ that some call Re-Birth…if We Boys and Young Girls Look to Our Mothers We Finally KNOW!!! what it’s LIKE!!! to Get Pregnant and Give Birth, The Physiology is Fascinating; exactly The Same Sensations for Different Reasons…

    nisi mortuus nec neque nolite vicit 🀭🀫🀐

    β—‡ – Diamond Hard – β—‡

    …β—‡β—‡β—‡…

    ON SUCCESSFUL EVOLUTION IN A SINGLE 3DLIFETIME

    β™‘ Swallow Some Cement, Harden The Fuck Up and Wear The Pain; just like a Mother Giving Birth The Pain of Our Re-Birth is Well Worth It…sounds HARSH!!! but then so is YOUR!!! Selfishness; so I Suggest Serious THOUGHT!!! Being Given To Enduring The Passing Pain as The End Result is Worth It

    nisi mortuus nec neque nolite vicit 🀭🀫🀐

    …β™‘β™‘β™‘…

    ON SUCCESS CLASS 101

    β—‡ – Diamond Hard – β—‡

    β™‘ Only YOU!!! Decide what Successful Means to YOU!!!
    ♀ How YOU!!! Succeed is Entirely Up to YOU!!!
    ♧ Clubbing – If Others Belittle YOUR!!! Successes YOU!!! ARE PERFECTLY ENTITLED!!! and Welcome to Tell THEM!!! to VERY KINDLY FUCK OFF!!! – Clubbing

    nisi mortuus nec neque nolite vicit 🀭🀫🀐

    β—‡ – Diamond Hard – β—‡

    …β—‡β—‡β—‡…

    ON HEALED THYSELF

    β™‘ A Healer Doesn’t Heal, The Self Heals and a Healer Holds Healing Spaces; it’s UnFortunate that so Many OverCareTakers Become Very, Very, Very Resentful…it’s Crystal Clear Clarity that OverCareTaking, Denying Others Access to THEIR!!! Sole Healing Space, DOES NOT!!! WORK!!! at ALL Apart from Family and Friends Falling Out, Quite Often IrReconcilably

    nisi mortuus nec neque nolite vicit 🀭🀫🀐

    …β™‘β™‘β™‘…

    ON HOLDING HEALING SPACES

    β—‡ – Diamond Hard – β—‡

    β—‡ We ALL Have a Space in which to Heal that maybe Cared For while We Go Wild before Our Recovery Journey Begins; sometimes We ASK Others to Look after Our Healing Space while We Go Wild and when We ARE Ready We Gratefully Retrieve and Step Back In To Our Generously Held Healing Space and Hence Heal OurSelves Subsequently

    nisi mortuus nec neque nolite vicit 🀭🀫🀐

    β—‡ – Diamond Hard – β—‡

    …β—‡β—‡β—‡…

    ON SUCCESSFULLY HOLDING HEALING SPACES FOR THE SELF HEALING OF OTHERS

    There is NO OBLIGATION!!! To Be The Crutch for Another like a Dog often is (no offence Dogs but YOU!!! really should be Biting a Lot More); these folk have No Concept of How To Look After ThemSelves Properly and Blame AnyOne or, for that matter, AnyThing Else that THEY CANNOT CONTROL!!! hence The Large Population of Dogs amongst Singletons…so, EveryOne, here ARE My Very Own Suggestions about How to Heal; ergo YOUR!!! Rejection or Acceptance of These THOUGHTS!!! is Entirely Up To YOU!!! unless YOU!!! CHOOSE!!! to Blame Others…then it’s Up to THEM!!! to MAKE YOUR!!! DECISIONS!!! as YOU!!! ARE Too Cowardly; it Really Makes No Difference to Me:

    β™‘ 1. It’s THEIR!!! Space To Heal ThemSelves and We Have Refused To Be CoDependent but Accept To Hold THEIR!!! Space To Heal
    β™‘ 2. We Hold THEIR!!! Space To Heal in Trust as Custodians of THEIR!!! Space to Heal and Hand It Back, Pristine, for THEM!!! to Step Back InTo then THEY!!! Heal THEMSELVES!!!
    β™‘ 3. We Set Boundaries and Assert Such, Said, TOUGH!!! Boundaries while Waiting for Them to Retrieve THEIR!!! Space To Heal from ALL of Us Empathic Holders and THEY!!! Step Back in to THEIR!!! Space To Heal so that THEY!!! Eventually Heal ThemSelves after THEY!!! Asked for It back and We Handed It, THEIR!!!! Space To Heal, Back To THEM!!! ergo, THEY!!! Heal THEMSELVES!!! and ALL is, Once Again, Well with The World

    nisi mortuus nec neque nolite vicit 🀭🀫🀐

    …β™‘β™‘β™‘…

    ON SUCCESS CLASS 101

    β—‡ – Diamond Hard – β—‡

    β™‘ Only YOU!!! Decide what Successful Means to YOU!!!
    ♀ How YOU!!! Succeed is Entirely Up to YOU!!!
    ♧ Clubbing – If Others Belittle YOUR!!! Successes YOU!!! ARE PERFECTLY ENTITLED!!! and Welcome to Tell THEM!!! to VERY KINDLY FUCK OFF!!! – Clubbing

    nisi mortuus nec neque nolite vicit 🀭🀫🀐

    β—‡ – Diamond Hard – β—‡

    …β—‡β—‡β—‡…

    ON LANGUAGES

    β—‡ – Diamond Hard – β—‡

    Language essentially Breaks Down in to Three Different Types; the Three Types ARE:

    ♀ Words (Spoken, Written, Signed, Braille et al)
    ♀ Body (Expressions, Postures et al)
    ♀ Energetic (Empathy, Telepathy et al)

    nisi mortuus nec neque nolite vicit 🀭🀫🀐

    β—‡ – Diamond Hard – β—‡

    …β—‡β—‡β—‡…

    ON SINGLEDOM 》COUPLEDOM AND COUPLEDOM 》SINGLEDOM PLUS FALLING OUT WITH FAMILY AND FRIENDS

    β™‘ As a Single Bloke with Numerous Exes I Have finally Quit Chasing Skirt; basically I Have So Much to Lose by Partnering Up Yet Again and No Idea what She and I Would Gain from Each Other…perhaps because I Actively Listen because Active Listening does Cause Conflict sometimes as People Forget what They Have Just Said after Asking Me a Question which I Answer with Their Own Words then They Claim Confusion Caused by Me; so Go Figure People Out or, I Guess, Leave them to Their Perfectly Entitled DELUSIONS!!!

    nisi mortuus nec neque nolite vicit 🀭🀫🀐

    …β™‘β™‘β™‘…

    ON SUCCESSFUL PSYCHOLOGICAL RECOVERY

    β™‘ The Biggest Barrier to Easy, Effective Communication is MMHI (Multiple Mental Health Issues) especially when UnAdmitted, UnAcknowledged and UnAddressed; ergo, Admit, Acknowledge and Address YOUR!!! MMHI instead of Complaining, Raging at Others then Sinking in to Depression, Anxiety and Other Mental Health Nasties

    nisi mortuus nec neque nolite vicit 🀭🀫🀐

    …β™‘β™‘β™‘…

    ON SUCCESS CLASS 101

    β—‡ – Diamond Hard – β—‡

    β™‘ Only YOU!!! Decide what Successful Means to YOU!!!
    ♀ How YOU!!! Succeed is Entirely Up to YOU!!!
    ♧ Clubbing – If Others Belittle YOUR!!! Successes YOU!!! ARE PERFECTLY ENTITLED!!! and Welcome to Tell THEM!!! to VERY KINDLY FUCK OFF!!! – Clubbing

    nisi mortuus nec neque nolite vicit 🀭🀫🀐

    β—‡ – Diamond Hard – β—‡

    …β—‡β—‡β—‡…

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