My Uncle is Dying

I’ve been really sad this week. Depressed too. I found out my great uncle is dying and has been put on hospice care. He has overcome a lot this past year, he had a stroke and then got Covid and developed pneumonia, but he recovered from both better than expected, but now he has some kind of heart/blood issue that they say can’t be fixed because he is simply too weak to survive any kind of surgery to correct the issue. Sadly, they can’t even grant his wish to go back home and pass away there, as he is in a lot of pain and they feel the IV pain relief drugs are necessary for his comfort since he doesn’t respond well to the pill form.

I have always had a special relationship with him. I spent quite a bit of time with him as a kid growing up. When we moved away when I was 12, he faithfully wrote me letters for years, letters that helped me through very rough times in my teenage life. I even chose him to marry my husband and I as he was an ordained minister. He was definitely the best example I had of Christianity in my life, and even though I’m not an evangelical Christian anymore, I still greatly respect the example he set of being kind and loving.

I don’t want him to suffer, and we have been worried about his quality of life ever since the stroke, but it is still hard to say goodbye. And so, I’m sad.

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marandarussell

Hi! I am an artist, author, and blogger who also happens to have Asperger’s Syndrome. I have won several awards and honors for my writings and artwork. I suffer from a few severe mental illness and chronic pain conditions (Depression, Anxiety, PTSD, Fibromyalgia, CFS/ME, Ehlers Danlos, Degenerative Disc Disease, etc.), which greatly affects my life and makes me want to advocate for others going through similar things. Other interests of mine include reading, writing, drawing, watching cartoons and movies, collecting toys, hanging out with my family, and annoying my 3 cats.

37 thoughts on “My Uncle is Dying”

  12. I am so sorry Maranda. It,is truly heartbreaking to. Lose someone so special. We can only hopebthat his passing is as comfortable as possible but it is going to be very hard for you. Sending love and hugs❤️

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  22. 💜 We ARE ALL with YOU!!! in YOUR!!! Sadness; take Comfort from Knowing He is NEVER!!! Really Gone what with Memories and Other Forms of Energy

    …💛💚💙…

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  25. I can’t “like” this post because I don’t equate sadness with likability I feel sad for your pain, especially the sadness of the struggle between wanting him to stop suffering versus wanting to keep him here. Grieving is something we never get better at no matter how many times we ‘practice’ it. May those who share your grief surround you and hold you close as this unfolds.

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