Maranda Russell

Tag: anger

  • And the Mood Disorder Strikes Again…

    I’ve had a really bad couple days. The day before yesterday I had a total meltdown because I couldn’t get a painting right. It was kind of the last straw, as I have been struggling terribly with irritability, anxiety, ocd, and anger lately. At first I thought it was just a phase or one of […]

  • Poetry – She Wants Blood

    Young miss is bad, very bad. She wants blood. She wants crimson floods overflowing the gutters down on main street. She wants children wielding wet scythes deep in the corn fields. She wants the church doors painted red long after Passover has passed us by.

  • Ghost Hunting and Ear Infections

    Man, I’m pretty bummed today. I was supposed to go ghost hunting at a local cemetery with a paranormal investigation group, but yesterday my earache turned into a raging ear infection and between the ear pain and the nausea from the antibiotics, I had to choose to stay home and rest. I guess there will […]

  • Dental Cleaning from Hell

    That headline isn’t exaggerating. I had a horrible dental cleaning experience yesterday. Now to be fair, my teeth are extremely sensitive, just like everything else on my body (thanks autism), so cleanings are never fun for me anyhow. There are always at least a few painful nerves hit during the process. However, yesterday the lady […]

  • Is Freemasonry Sexist?

    I’ve always been fascinated by secret societies and any organizations that tend to have “secret teachings”. The Freemasons specifically have always been an object of curiosity for me. I have always been tempted to join the Freemasons and work my way up the 33 degrees of their Scottish Rite path, because I would love to […]

  • Poetry – Holy Warriors

    Holy Warriors By: Maranda Russell Holy warriors learn a lesson today. Their distorted agenda rightly condemns one righteous man setting a fire beyond their own narrow audience – but – to the best of my knowledge – this will be a one-time exception.

  • Can Abusers Ever Be Reformed?

    This is a question I struggle with myself on a regular basis. Can abusers really ever change or is it just theater to try to pull you back in so they can mistreat you again? Should you ever let a prior abuser back into your life if they seem to have changed for the good? […]

  • Denied Access to Mental Health Records

    I found out recently that my Social Security Disability (SSDI) hearing has been set for February 2019. When I found this out, I contacted my attorney’s office to ask for a copy of my medical records since I honestly don’t even know what all is in them other than what my doctors have told me […]

  • Why Did I Watch the Abuse?

    Last night I was thinking about my history of abuse and how I grew up seeing so much of it. As far as physical abuse goes, I did endure some growing up, but it was much more common for me to see someone else physically abused in my family. There was a “scapegoat” in our […]