Tag: borderline personality disorder

  • Poetry – This Mental Love

    I pour myself out, a puddle of libation on the floor… If any of my fancies ever pleased you, I beg of you to accept the mental influences at work. My affection may be disputable, but it was never plagiarized. Of my loyalty, none could fairly doubt, as my poverty is a witness to my […]

  • Obsessive Dark Fantasizing

    The last few days have been rough. I’ve been dealing with dark, obsessive thoughts that I know aren’t healthy for me to dwell on. Dark thoughts of restlessness, dark thoughts of jealousy and resentment, dark thoughts about relationships and craving attention, and dark thoughts about life and death. Craving attention might not sound like such […]

  • Dysfunctional Family: My Mom Married My High School Friend

    Ok, so in the past I already wrote a more serious post about the trauma I experienced when my mom ended up marrying the first guy I ever brought home (read it here). He was a friend of mine, two years older, going to the same high school. They got married on his 18th birthday, […]

  • A Theory About Personality Disorders

    While I was writing yesterday’s post about personality disorders, I kind of came up with a theory of my own. That theory is that all of us likely fall somewhere on the spectrum of personality disorders – ALL of us. Granted, it is definitely to greater or lesser extents depending on your experiences, personality type, […]

  • Nighttime Dread and “Quiet Borderlines” Thoughts

    Nighttime Dread and “Quiet Borderlines” Thoughts

    I slept in until after 2pm this afternoon. I hate when that happens. I feel like most of the day is already gone by the time I get out of bed. I must have slept at least around 12 hours last night, even though I had a bit of an emotional fest when I actually […]

  • Being Too Clingy and Possessive

    Being Too Clingy and Possessive

    I can be a bit possessive, especially when in a close relationship. I’ve always been like that. Even as a kid I would get jealous sometimes if my friends had other friends or wanted to do stuff without me. I’m not sure why, but I am easily prone to feeling left out or threatened by […]

  • Rejection Issues – Am I Overreacting?

    I tend to be an overly sensitive person who easily feels rejected or uncared for by people who may not actually mean to make me feel that way. I know I have some self-esteem issues and take things personally too often. Right now there is a situation that is leaving me wondering if I am […]