Tag: counseling

  • The Real Problem with the World

    The problem isn’t me. Not really. The problem is the world. The gossips. The bullies. The abusers. The narcissists. The shallow. The cruel. The snobs. The judgmental. The callous. The ignorant. The rude. The contentious. The angry. The passive aggressive. The sadistic. The jealous. The violent. Is it any wonder I fear humanity? Is it […]

  • Things I Would REALLY Like to Say to My Past Abusers

    I don’t owe you anything! I’m nothing like you. You don’t own me and you never did. You deserve what you got. Sometimes I feel nothing for you. You are at fault for so much. You have no one to blame but yourself. You are lucky to have anyone who still cares. I’m a saint […]

  • Fundamentally Alone, but Craving Understanding

    The past week or so has been rough on me mentally. I’ve had way too many weepy days where I would cry for seemingly no good reason. Several times I had anxiety/frustration meltdowns. You could argue about whether they were “autistic meltdowns” or “bipolar meltdowns”, but at the end of the day, does the label […]

  • MIA Therapist and Feeling Sick

    MIA Therapist and Feeling Sick

    Today I was supposed to have therapy at 11am, but my therapist got confused and thought we had scheduled for 1pm, so I ended up waiting for a few minutes at the therapy office and then just going home. Usually something like that happening would really upset me, but today I actually took it pretty […]

  • I’m Super Grumpy and Annoyed Today

    I’m Super Grumpy and Annoyed Today

    I am in a mood today. Seriously grumpy and feeling like crap both mentally and physically. I was supposed to go to a support group meeting today, but the absolute last thing I want to do when I feel like this is socialize or go anywhere. Instead, I just want to cocoon on the recliner […]

  • Good Therapy Session Update, and Books for Emotional Healing

    Good Therapy Session Update, and Books for Emotional Healing

    I had a really good therapy session today. We talked more about the symptoms I am currently experiencing which might be related to a mood disorder vs what might be related to PTSD and my past. On the mood disorder (or Bipolar) front, I think I have made some progress, especially when it comes to […]

  • Therapy Homework: Affirmations for Self-Esteem

    Therapy Homework: Affirmations for Self-Esteem

    I saw my therapist this past weekend and it went ok, but I honestly think sometimes my therapist gets kind of annoyed or frustrated with me. I feel like she sometimes wants to see more progress than I’ve made, especially in the self-esteem/self-loathing area. To be fair, I haven’t always been the best about following […]

  • Doll Therapy for Depression, Grief, and Alzheimer’s?

    Doll Therapy for Depression, Grief, and Alzheimer’s?

    So, as I said the other day, right now I am in a doll phase, specifically reborn dolls, which are dolls that are made to look and feel more like real infants. While I’ve been surfing the internet reading about these dolls and looking at pics of the ones available, I have also come across […]

  • Suicidal Ideations

    *Note: I wrote this a while back and am not currently feeling suicidal, but I thought it might be interesting to share this poem as it does illustrate a real mental struggle I have dealt with on and off for many years. Suicidal Ideations If I only had a dollar for every time I have […]

  • Fan Q&A: Favorite Musicians, Autism and Romance, Suicidal Thoughts

    Hello! Today I’m sharing my most recent fan Q&A video from my YouTube vlog. In it I discuss my favorite musicians besides Michael Jackson and Nirvana, whether I believe having high-functioning autism makes it harder to have a romantic relationship, and exactly what kind of suicidal thoughts I have had in the past and why […]