of the dryer
As the clothing
tumbles, I hear
a high-pitched ping –
in a pocket,
and the heavy thump
of footless shoes.
Feeling like shit today. Woke up after sleeping 10-11 hours, ate breakfast, and then went to take a nap for another couple of hours. So, why am I so exhausted and feeling like I got run over by a steamroller?
Well, yesterday my husband was driving home from work when a tire fell off his car. I had to go pick him up and once I got there, we had to wait for the tow truck to come get the broken down car. It was supposed to be about an hour before the tow truck arrived, instead it was almost three hours. Three hours of sitting in the cold (we did turn on the heat in my car occasionally, but didn’t want to run it the entire time we were waiting). Three hours of sitting in a position that is not good for my back, neck, and joints. Three hours of my joints stiffening due to the cold and being cramped in the car.
I knew today I would feel rough after all that and expected my CFS/ME and Ehlers Danlos to flare up. As usual, I was correct, but I wish I wasn’t. Those who don’t have chronic illness and chronic pain have no idea how easy it is for normal, annoying life events to set us back for days. I think it is something you have to experience to truly understand.
Our water heater sprung a big leak, so today I’ve been stuck at home waiting for it to get fixed. The hallway carpet was soaked through before we noticed the leak, so trying to dry that up has been a hassle as well. I really hope it doesn’t cause mold to grow where I can’t get to it 😦 That is the last thing my overly sensitive allergies need.
They had to drain the water heater before trying to fix it, so no hot water until it gets fixed and fills up again. It is funny how most days I put off taking a shower until late in the day, but when I can’t take a shower, it is ALL I want to do lol. I feel dirty, grimy, and disgusting, even though I know that is mostly in my head, since I took a bath yesterday.
I had to cancel my therapy appointment for today due to this annoying new development in home ownership, but that is ok, I really wasn’t feeling much like talking today anyhow. I don’t know if it is the stuff going on with the water heater, the rainy, bleak day outside, or just my ever-changing mood, but I’m feeling rather apathetic and blah today.
I want my hot water back!!! Waaahhhhhhh!!!!
Today I am exhausted and not feeling well mentally or physically, but there are some things I HAVE to do that will keep me from laying in bed all day, which is what I would really rather be doing. I have to go get my allergy shots, which I have to do every single Monday for at least a year or two. Having allergies this bad sucks 😦
My husband and I also have to take in our car to get an alignment. It has been shaking pretty bad on the highway recently when you speed up or slow down, and we are hoping to take a short trip later this week, so we have to go drop it off today, which means I have to at least drive it there.
I’m not sure what is actually wrong with me today. I’ve been trying to eat better and am working on some of the eating disorder behaviors I recently mentioned in another post. I’m still doing my bipolar mood charting, and while I had a few energetic up days a few days ago, I am now definitely heading in the opposite direction. I feel like I’m crashing and I hope it doesn’t last too long this time.