Severe Nail Biting and OCD

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I am a nail biter. I have always been a nail biter from what I can remember. It isn’t just an occasional thing either, it is a constant habit that I can’t control. I bite my nails until they bleed or until the nail bed is exposed. Even then, even if it causes real pain, I continue to pick at them. I chew off the skin around the nails too, including the skin on my fingertips. The end of my fingers often look scraped raw.

Yesterday I just happened to come across something online that said that this particular behavior is actually considered a disorder, a sub classification of the OCD diagnosis. There is even a fancy name for severe nail biting (onychophagia). I guess I shouldn’t be too surprised, since there are other similar grooming behaviors that can lapse into obsessive compulsions (such as skin picking, hair plucking, etc.) I do have many other OCD habits and am pretty sure I have been officially diagnosed with the disorder somewhere along the line, but since I have been diagnosed with so many things it can be easy to forget the specifics.

Perhaps the oddest thing about my severe nail biting is that I have absolutely no desire to stop. I never have. Others have wanted me to stop, but I never really cared. It feels good. It is a satisfying feeling to nip and nibble at my nails. It is an especially helpful distraction during times of great stress or fear. I have never cared much what my nails looked like or worried about what other people think of them. I do get a bit self-conscious sometimes if they are bleeding in public, but other than that, I simply don’t care.

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Cereal!!!! Yay!!!

Ok, I admit it, I’m a little obsessed with cereal.  I have probably tried every kind known to man (including some international kinds that I had to specially order).  At any time, we have probably 8-10 different kinds of cereal open in our house, plus another 10-15 unopened boxes of cereal on top of our fridge.  I have even taken to trying generic cereals just to get a different taste, and that is why I am writing today.

Kroger has a new generic cereal out called “Aliens”.  “Aliens”, like its name implies, is a cereal made from multi-colored UFO, meteoroid and extraterrestrial pieces, plus star-shaped marshamallows.  This new cereal is not a knock-off of a cereal brand that is currently on the market, but it tastes a lot like an old, discontinued cereal called “Kaboom” that was put out by General Mills for many years. 

So why am I so excited by this?  I LOVE “Kaboom” and have been in a sort of withdrawal since General Mills stopped manufacturing it several years ago.  “Kaboom” hasn’t actually been sold in this part of Ohio for many years, even before it was officially discontinued.  In fact, I used to drive to either WV or IN to buy it.  My husband even bought me three boxes of “Kaboom” as one of my Christmas gifts years ago!

Does anyone else out there remember “Kaboom” or have a special place in their heart for another discontinued cereal?  Just curious to see if I am fighting an obsessive complex here or if I’m perfectly normal.