Tag: ocd

  • And the Mood Disorder Strikes Again…

    I’ve had a really bad couple days. The day before yesterday I had a total meltdown because I couldn’t get a painting right. It was kind of the last straw, as I have been struggling terribly with irritability, anxiety, ocd, and anger lately. At first I thought it was just a phase or one of […]

  • I’m Back!!! (with new blogging insights)

    Hi everyone! So, I had a nice week off from blogging. I needed the break to give myself some time to relax and focus on other things. While I was away I asked myself some hard questions. Do I still enjoy blogging? Why was blogging stressing me out so much? Should I change some of […]

  • Stressful Week So Far

    This week has been stressful. I’m not sure if I’m just overreacting to things because I’m autistic and hypersensitive to everything (especially changes in routine), or if this would even throw many normal people off their game, but since Monday: I had to wait hours at the BMV to renew my driver’s license and then […]

  • Obsessive Dark Fantasizing

    The last few days have been rough. I’ve been dealing with dark, obsessive thoughts that I know aren’t healthy for me to dwell on. Dark thoughts of restlessness, dark thoughts of jealousy and resentment, dark thoughts about relationships and craving attention, and dark thoughts about life and death. Craving attention might not sound like such […]

  • Dark Obsessions and MRI’s

    Yesterday I saw my psychiatrist. We spent a lot of time talking about the dark, morbid interests I have and whether those might be contributing to my depression and anxiety. I’ve always been drawn to studying the dark side of things, whether it be the occult, serial killers, suicide, the dark side of history, horror […]

  • Mental Health Labels – Gotta Catch’em All!!!

    Sometimes I feel like mental health disorders are like Pokemon: Gotta catch’em all!!! Is there a point where collecting mental health labels gets ridiculous and almost humorous? Sometimes I wonder if all the stuff that has been ascribed to me is really wrong with me, and if it is – is it actually just one […]

  • YouTube Video: Depression Hits Again.

    I think the title and video pretty much say it all: By the way, if you are struggling with any mental health issues of your own, make sure to check out BetterHelp‘s online resources!

  • Worries about My SSDI Hearing Tomorrow

    Tomorrow morning is my SSDI hearing. I’m super anxious about it. I feel a little nauseated just thinking about it. I’m afraid I’ll do or say the wrong thing. I’m afraid I’ll burst into tears and feel embarrassed. I’m afraid I’ll somehow misrepresent my reality. I’m afraid the judge will say no and ruin my […]

  • I Am An Obsessive Collector

    I collect too many things. I collect tons of toys/action figures/dolls/squishies/stuffed animals/minifigures (Barbie, My Little Pony, Sesame Street, Looney Tunes, Lego, Nickelodeon, Disney, Schleich, Funko Pops, Reborns, Cabbage Patch Dolls, Coraline, etc.) I have an entire room for all my toys and collectibles. I collect books, especially children’s books and books about subjects I am […]

  • Out of Anxiety Meds & Body Dysmorphia

    I’ve had a rough few days. I think the main problem is that I’ve been out of my anxiety meds for a while because Buspirone is on national back-order for some reason, and my pharmacy doesn’t know when/if they will get it back in. I contacted my psychiatrist today to ask him to prescribe something […]