I tend to be an overly sensitive person who easily feels rejected or uncared for by people who may not actually mean to make me feel that way. I know I have some self-esteem issues and take things personally too often. Right now there is a situation that is leaving me wondering if I am feeling legitimately rejected or if I am overreacting a little bit, so I figured I would share my feelings here and see what others think.
There is a person in my life, a close family member, that is sending me rather mixed messages and honestly confusing me. What is confusing to me is that when I do talk to this person, they say they really miss me and love me, but they rarely ever call me and even if I call them, they often take days to bother getting back to me, if they do at all. Is it unreasonable that this is leaving me feeling like they don’t really care?
I will say that the relationship in question already has a lot of “water under the bridge” so to say. There is a lot of hurt and a sense of betrayal from the past, which this person has often promised to make up for, but the way they actually act towards me makes me wonder if they really want to mend the relationship at all.
The Idea of People
Written By: Maranda Russell
I love the idea of people,
but I must admit
often fails to meet
my high expectations.
Was feeling rather depressed over a rejection I received today. The editor said my story was a “very moving, very well-written story” but it wasn’t right for their list right now. Darn! I get so sick of pitching to publishers and getting more rejections than acceptances. I was sitting here throwing a pity party for myself and moaning over the fact that I don’t have an agent to do my marketing for me, when I came across some rejections received by famous authors of the past. Now I don’t feel quite so bad…
I am sorry, Mr. Kipling, but you just do not know how to use the English language.
–San Francisco Examiner, rejection letter to Kipling (1889)
A gross trifling with every fine word.
–Springfield Republican, review of Huckleberry Finn (1884)
We fancy that any child might be more puzzled than enchanted by this stiff, silly, overwrought story.
–Children’s Books’ review of Alice In Wonderland by Lewis Carrol (1865)
Shakespeare’s name, you may depend on it, will go down. He has no invention as to stories, none whatever. –Lord Byron (1814)
A huge dose of hyperbolical slang, maudlin sentimentalism and tragic-comic bubble and squeak.
–William Harrison Ainsworth, New Monthly Magazine, review of Moby Dick by Herman Melville (1851)
Ralph Waldo Emerson is a hoary-headed and toothless baboon.
–Thomas Carlyle, _Collected Works_ (1871)