In Love with Pat Sajak – A funny little story

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As a child, I wrote my diary in code, knowing my mother would likely find it and read it. I swapped names, and made substitutions, just to throw her off the scent of what I was really thinking and feeling.

One of my first adolescent crushes, I referred to as Pat Sajak (the Wheel of Fortune guy), pulling the random celebrity name from my jumbled mind. To this day, I can’t help but smile as I wonder if she really thought I had romantic notions towards the middle-aged game show host?

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Fan Q&A: Favorite Musicians, Autism and Romance, Suicidal Thoughts

Hello! Today I’m sharing my most recent fan Q&A video from my YouTube vlog. In it I discuss my favorite musicians besides Michael Jackson and Nirvana, whether I believe having high-functioning autism makes it harder to have a romantic relationship, and exactly what kind of suicidal thoughts I have had in the past and why I hope people get help if they themselves are struggling with thoughts like that. If any of you have a question for me you would like answered in a future video, please ask in the comments section of this post or the video itself!

New Romance Novella Ebook only $0.99 on Kindle!

 

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Hi everyone! This is just a short post to let everyone know that I have decided to brush off an old romantic novella that I never published and put it for sale as a Kindle ebook for only $0.99 (FREE if you have Kindle Unlimited)! It is entitled “Improper Intentions” and is a fanciful historical story set in England with a little bit of a gothic feel at times. It may be a little cheesy and predictable, but then again, aren’t most romances? Even the good ones lol. Lately I have been in more of a mood to write fiction and might try to come up with another romantic novella or two in the near future, so keep an eye out!

If you do check out the story, please consider leaving a review on Amazon and/or Goodreads! It really does help me to know what you all think! I am willing to give a few free PDF copies of the story to interested reviewers as well, so feel free to contact me if you are interested!

Thank you “Fifty Shades of Grey” for making my life look great

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So today I decided to go see the Fifty Shades of Grey movie. Tuesdays are bargain day at our local theater so I figured it would be the best time to go if I bothered to see it. I didn’t want to drag my husband to the movie because he hated the Twilight series for having no plot…and the Fifty Shades series makes Twilight look downright complex. I skimmed through the first two books of the Fifty Shades series and made it about halfway through the last book, so I did have an idea of what I would be in for with the movie.

First off, let me say that some of the others who showed up for the movie kind of surprised me. As I expected, there were groups of women, a few couples and quite a few single women like me there (this is the first time I’ve gone to a theater all by myself and that was actually kind of liberating in a way). What surprised me were the few single men (because this is billed as such a “chick flick”) and the 70 & 80 year-old women who came, one of whom (an adorable little old lady) sat right beside me. For a moment I felt like I was seeing the movie with my grandmother and that kind of threw me off balance a bit!

Anyhow, as I watched the movie, it was pretty much what I expected, a somewhat tamed down version of the book. Although I do understand why many women don’t like this series and think it encourages stalking, unrealistic expectations and domestic abuse, I don’t feel quite that strongly about it because there is consent. Anastasia may seem stupid in many ways and definitely makes some questionable decisions, but she is a consenting adult. She has quite a few chances to walk away and doesn’t do so. I know she seems innocent (maybe too much so for living in today’s world) but she does know what she is getting into, especially once she is given that contract to study.

As for Mr. Grey, I can see some of why the character is appealing to some women. He is rich, good-looking, can be sweet at times and represents a sexual fantasy fairly common to both sexes (that of being dominated or dominating someone else). Those aren’t the things that bother me. He is undoubtedly somewhat stalkery and controlling…but again, Anastasia’s character chooses to allow that to have him in her life. What truly bothers me about Mr. Grey’s character is how he is so messed up from his own abusive history that he wants to actually hurt women. He wants to cause pain. To me, there is nothing sexy about that. I know that there are those who like the BDSM lifestyle and enjoy a certain amount of pain…but I doubt that most true BDSM practitioners would want to cause pain to someone who clearly does not enjoy it or go beyond their partner’s pain threshold. I can see why the BDSM community hates this portrayal of their sexual fetishes.

As the movie neared its end I was surprised to see women in the audience around me crying. I sat there and wondered why they were crying. Were they frustrated and annoyed like me because Anastasia wouldn’t just say the safe word or yell stop? Were some of them victims of abuse in the past and this triggered that as they saw Anastasia cry miserably in pain? Were they simply feeling sad that Grey’s character was so messed up emotionally? Did they feel for Anastasia’s character, who clearly felt humiliated and heartbroken because the man she loved carried so much pain that he had to make others feel that pain? After the credits started, I heard cries of “is that it?” and “what the heck?” from others in the theater. Guess they hadn’t read the books.

As I got in my car and drove home, the main feeling I had was that I am so THANKFUL to have a husband who is not emotionally or mentally messed up like that. I’m glad that my husband has never once wanted to hurt or humiliate me. In fact, if anything, he would do anything in his power to prevent me pain or to take it away when I am suffering. So thank you Mr. Grey. You made my husband look even more wonderful and made me deeply thankful for what I have. You made me realize how strong I am because I never would have put up with your crap in the first place (had I been Anastasia that would have been one short book!). In the end, I guess fantasies are ok and maybe fun to indulge in to an extent, but nothing beats a good reality!

“Mystified” – young adult novel review

“Mystified” is a book that truly kept me guessing from the beginning until the end.  This young adult novel, which was written by T.C. Booth, is a unique blend of fantasy, faith, romance, angels, spiritual warfare, family issues and the ordinary dilemmas that are part of being a teenager in today’s world.

The plot seems simple enough, a teenage girl named Erin Colley finds herself torn between a popular jock at her school and a mysterious hottie who happens to show up whenever Erin finds herself in need of assistance.  As Erin gets to know the mysterious stranger more, she realizes that he is more than human and finds out that she has some special gifts as well.  As the story progresses, Erin finds out that what at first appeared to be blessings may create bittersweet yearnings as she learns to merge her gifts with her normal human life.

This story does definitely have some spiritual and Christian overtones, but in no way do they detract from the story or slow down the pace.  In fact, the mix of fantasy and spirituality work together to enhance the story, making it richer and deeper.  I also liked the fact that the characters were realistic.  They all had their own unique personality flaws, but they also have the confidence to be themselves and choose the right path, even when things get hard.  As the characters grow and mature, they come to realize that popularity isn’t really all that important, especially when it means compromising your beliefs.

If you have been looking for an inspiring, yet exciting tale, this might be just the book for you.  To find out more about the book, please visit the author’s website.  While there you can read a little more about the book, including character descriptions and discount promotions that are currently available.  There are also links to purchase the book in eBook form from Amazon, Smashwords and Barnes and Noble.

Thoughts on the new ‘Jane Eyre’ movie

Tonight my mother and I went to go see the new ‘Jane Eyre’ adaptation featuring Mia Wasikowska and Michael Fassbender.  I considered dragging my husband and foster son along, but since they seemed more excited at the prospect of being castrated, I decided to leave them at home.  I’m glad I did, otherwise I’m sure my husband would have fallen asleep and my foster son would have been whining about being bored the whole time.

However, do not take that last sentence as an insult to the film.  In fact, many of my favorite movies bore the male members of my family to distraction (perhaps because the majority of our male population lacks emotional depth and appreciation for movies without battle scenes).  Now, on to the film itself…

I have been a fan of ‘Jane Eyre’ for many years, so I went to see this movie with several other beloved film versions and the book itself in mind.  Even though I did find a few flaws with the film, overall, it was worth watching.  I didn’t really like the way the movie kept bouncing back and forth between present time and flashbacks, but that was mainly because I was worried that my mother (who was unfamiliar with the story) would have a hard time following what was going on.  Luckily, she was able to catch on fairly quickly.

I also felt that the film didn’t give enough attention to Jane’s years living with her aunt and at Lowood.  These years were very important to the development of Jane’s character and shouldn’t have been rushed so much.  Previous versions of the film did seem to do these scenes better.

As for the acting, Mia did a fine job as Jane and I loved Fassbender as Mr. Rochester.  The passion and brooding misery that is Mr. Rochester came out loud and clear.  The little girl that played Adele wasn’t quite the enchanting little entertainer I expected, so I felt that character fell a bit short.  The revelation scene where Jane finds out about Mr. Rochester’s first wife also seemed a bit flat.  I didn’t think that they completely illustrated how insane this woman is supposed to be.

Overall, this movie is worth watching, but is probably not the best version of this classic story.  The cinematography of the film is very dark and subdued, but beautiful in its own simple way.  A few of the shots at first were shaky and almost made me dizzy, but the film soon smoothed out.

Hate censorship as much as I do? Here is the perfect manga series for you!

The manga series ‘Library Wars: Love & War’ is primarily a love story, but it delves into some pretty important social problems as well.  The series is based on the novel by Hiro Arikawa, but the manga story and art were created by Kiiro Yumi.  I’ve never read the novel, so I can’t comment on whether the manga stays true to the original story, but I can say that the manga is well-done. 

The main storyline is about a girl named Iku who is determined to join the Library Forces and fight against the MBC, an organization that believes most books are evil.  The action scenes come in when the Library Forces fight the MBC.  The Library Forces are determined to give people the freedom to enjoy the books they love, but the MBC wishes to keep whatever they deem ‘inappropriate literature’ out of the hands of the general population…

To finish reading this article, please visit Examiner.com: http://www.examiner.com/anime-manga-in-dayton/library-wars-fighting-against-censorship