Tag: sadness

  • My World Has Crashed

    I’m normally brutally honest with you guys, but sometimes that is hard when someone else’s privacy and reputation is involved, but I am deeply hurting today and must share that much at least. I feel like my entire world has been turned upside down in less than a day’s worth of time. I found out […]

  • Poetry – Uncomfortable

    We are uncomfortable in this world not made for us. Divine providence? Grand design? Or just another cosmic punch line?

  • Quarantine Depression

    I’m struggling right now mentally and emotionally. Here are some of the reasons: I found out yesterday that my psychiatrist is retiring at the end of the month, so I have to start seeing someone new, beginning with my next appointment in June. I think one of the worst things is that I won’t get […]

  • Poetry – “Numb” Haiku

    When you feel nothing why does it always end up feeling horrible?

  • Reasons I’m Depressed Right Now

    My cat will die tomorrow. After 14+ years together. A meetup group that I was truly enjoying and was beginning to feel part of disbanded for the foreseeable future. I feel artistically lonely. I wish I had others in my “real” life who had the passion for art and literature (especially poetry) that I have. […]

  • Poetry – Killing My Cat

    Monday appointment 3pm $41 for the medicine of death $90 to turn you to ash cancer is no respecter of species Spyder, what would you say if you knew what was coming? The question haunts me and you aren’t even dead yet

  • Drawing My Mood

    Feeling like this little guy today. Things still not going well with my sick kitty. Feeling sad and overwhelmed. Wishing it wasn’t the holidays when I have family/social responsibilities pressing down on me too. On the plus side, I have been selling a lot of my art and books, but hard to feel too celebratory. […]

  • My Baby is Dying

    My baby kitty Spyder is dying. I’m pretty sure of it now. We’ve ruled out pretty much everything but cancer or autoimmune disease, with cancer looking most likely. He hasn’t eaten for 3 days now and is getting weaker and weaker. We’ve tried everything we know. Spent well over $1,000 to try to get him […]

  • Depression Again

    Been really fighting off a depression slump again, and I’m losing. Today I slept in until after noon – that is often one of the first signs that the depression is getting real. The longer and later I sleep in often correlates directly to a diminishing mood. You may ask if there is something triggering […]

  • Loving My New Nintendo 2DS

    So I decided to treat myself to the new Nintendo 2DS with Super Mario Bros. 2 pre-installed. Am loving this handheld so far. It reminds me so much of the consoles I grew up with, but with much better graphics and cool internet connections of course. One semi-sad aspect of my own gaming story is […]