Even My Dream Self is Depressed

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I’m still struggling quite a bit. Feeling lethargic, numb, and exhausted all the time. Still not wanting to get out of bed, even though I’m not finding much refuge in sleep either, since my dreams the last couple nights have been overrun by nightmares. Quite an assortment of bad dreams too: A dream about my husband not loving me anymore, a dream about giant ants, a dream about trying to get kicked out of high school. Even in my dreams I’m miserable. During the high school dream the reason I wanted to get kicked out was because I was so depressed I just couldn’t function and wanted to go home and crash.

I’m hoping this depressive episode passes soon. I’m not sure if it is maybe exacerbated by seasonal affective disorder since I haven’t seen the sun in a while, or if this is just a shitty coincidence, but I wish I felt better.

Spring Come Quickly! Cute Bunny Collage

Today I’m looking forward to spring! Warmer weather, sunshine, flowers, bunnies…I love it all and am ready to see winter slip into the past! I find that when springtime comes it always does wonders for my mental health, probably due to seasonal affective disorder, which always seems to be an issue in the wintertime. I thought that since I’m feeling it so strongly today, I would share a spring inspired ACEO mixed media collage artwork I made a while ago:

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