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Art Show Anxiety – Past Wins, Future Failures? Am I Good Enough?
Ok, so this past year I placed and won an award in a pretty prestigious art competition. One of those fancy ones where you have to pay hundreds of dollars to even go to the art show and sale, and the auction bids can get pretty crazy. It was for charity though, so I didn’t […]
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Mixed State or Hell?
The past few days have not been the greatest. I’ve been both super anxious and fairly depressed. I guess it is probably what most people would call a mixed state in the bipolar community. I feel on edge all the time. My brain is constantly telling me something is wrong and that I need to […]
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Micro Poetry: Modern Women
Modern women Obsessed with the hair on their heads At war with hair anywhere else (Poetry by Maranda Russell, marandarussell.com)
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Does Any of It Matter?
Do you ever wonder if it all matters? I sure do. I try to be positive most of the time when I think about the things I do and whether they make a difference, but when I get depressed, the voices of doubt tend to get louder. They say some pretty mean things: Are you […]
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A Bipolar Self Image
Just like with my thoughts and feelings, my self image changes so wildly with my mood. A good example of this is my view of my looks and/or attractiveness. Most days I think I look average when I look in a mirror. I’m not delusional, thinking I am some kind of supermodel or show-stopping beauty, […]
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Things I Would REALLY Like to Say to My Past Abusers
I don’t owe you anything! I’m nothing like you. You don’t own me and you never did. You deserve what you got. Sometimes I feel nothing for you. You are at fault for so much. You have no one to blame but yourself. You are lucky to have anyone who still cares. I’m a saint […]