This is just a short note to let all my blog readers know that I need to take a break for a week or so. I’m feeling a bit burned out and things are stressful in my personal life right now (I had to take my husband to the ER yesterday because his back gave out entirely, it sucked to have to do so with the fear of the pandemic going on!)
So, if you notice I’m not posting, don’t worry, I’ll be back 🙂 If you believe in prayer or good vibes or anything like that, feel free to send them my way. I need all the help I can get right now lol.
Had my EEG yesterday morning. It wasn’t too bad. The flashing strobe light part was almost kind of like what I imagine doing psychedelic drugs would be like – all the swirling lights and patterns…it was kind of crazy. I was supposed to nap for like 15 minutes or so, but just couldn’t fall asleep. I’m hoping I won’t have to do the home sleep study, but I guess we’ll see what the doctor thinks. The gel they put on my hair to keep the electrodes connected drove me crazy, so I had to come right home and wash it out.
Other than that, not much exciting is going on. I am attempting to embrace a mostly gluten-free diet in hopes that it helps my digestive and chronic inflammatory issues, but it is hard because many of my favorite foods (pasta, pizza, bread, cereal, cookies, etc.) have to be eliminated or replaced with gluten-free substitutes which don’t always taste as good or have the same texture. As an autistic gal, food texture matters A LOT to me and it takes a good long while for me to get used to changes. Thank goodness a few mainstream cereals are already gluten free (like Cheerios, Lucky Charms, most Chex varieties, Fruity/Cocoa Pebbles, and a few more).
My mood today is rather blah. Just not feeling much of anything, except tired.
This image from Pixabay pretty much illustrates exactly how I feel today. Just slump me over and leave me to die. I’m not sure which is worse today, my depression or my exhaustion…but I suppose they are best buds anyhow and pretty damn hard to separate.
Today I am exhausted and not feeling well mentally or physically, but there are some things I HAVE to do that will keep me from laying in bed all day, which is what I would really rather be doing. I have to go get my allergy shots, which I have to do every single Monday for at least a year or two. Having allergies this bad sucks 😦
My husband and I also have to take in our car to get an alignment. It has been shaking pretty bad on the highway recently when you speed up or slow down, and we are hoping to take a short trip later this week, so we have to go drop it off today, which means I have to at least drive it there.
I’m not sure what is actually wrong with me today. I’ve been trying to eat better and am working on some of the eating disorder behaviors I recently mentioned in another post. I’m still doing my bipolar mood charting, and while I had a few energetic up days a few days ago, I am now definitely heading in the opposite direction. I feel like I’m crashing and I hope it doesn’t last too long this time.